My Heart Beats Like a Symphony

“The one who would be in constant happiness must frequently change.” ~ Confucious

Flow. We cling to things in the past and cling to things in the present. Do you want to enjoy a symphony?

Don’t hold on to a couple of notes...
Don’t hold on to a few bars of the music...

Let them f l o w .

The whole enjoyment of a symphony lies in your readiness to allow such complexities to pass...

With the passing of Julie (RIP 10.29.2011), I've come to the realization that not everything has a plan and that even with a plan will you always be able to follow suit. Success does not always mean that you started a project and were able to finish accordingly--although that is ideal. But sometimes the best successes and joys of life are being able to adapt and over come... Things happen in life all the time. Some good. Some bad. I'm not always ready, but I'm learning to float.

My favorite candy bar... Hershey's Symphony Bar in Milk Chocolate Toffee Almond has become my latest craving--and no, I'm not pregnant! But it's so simple, and straightforward, and so complex and it hits every single one of my happy spots.

My heart beats like a symphony
I'm ready and open for love to flow...

Floating,
RAE

A little bit of negative

Fuck. I'm pissed.

I had a test today and i overslept. I cant believe i did this to myself. But in general, life is rough and stressful.
Let's be honest... I'm overwhelmed with the idleness and it feels like my attempts for change go unnoticed.

I don't know what to do. I definitely feel like a zombie right now. Just kind of doing whatever.

Shaking My Head,
RAE

Capping Brookes Bday

Through it all--I was there. I love my friend, Brooke and I only hope she has many great experiences for her 20th year. These are the photos that kicked off her year fresh from being a teen...

FAMILY + DANCE = MY HAPPY HEART

Love is my religion - I could die for it.

1 month of LAME

I was dating someone. He was a complete jerk. I went on his facebook and found that he was sharing some very interesting conversations with them, while he was seeing me. I had no idea that we weren't exclusive, especially since he had asked me to be his girlfriend. Why are boys so lame? Why does drama find me? Disgusting.

OVER IT,
RAE

I don’t want to forget this moment.

Hello life,

I’ve started a new chapter as of January 15th of this year. I moved to the LBC and thus far it has been wonderful. No serious problem despite the constant struggle to pay for rent.

I work at Los Angeles Helicopters as a receptionist/dispatcher. India… lima oscar victor echo… tango hotel india sierra… juliet oscar bravo…
I got to school at Harbor Occupational Center for the Pharmacy Technician program where I am within the top 5 of my class.

I wake up every day and I still think of my favorite flight. And by the end of the day, as I prep myself for complete rest, I realize how much I hate the fact: It was the best trip, and it all crashed—beyond my control—while I was still enjoying the happy air. Maybe I was the only one felt this high…? Why…? But I don’t regret, I just reflect.

My laptop is broken. It has STDs or something.
This asshole asked me recently to be his friends with benefits. I said no. He’s Asian, short in stature and knowledge, and more importantly, probably has a small weenis. I don’t settle, and definitely don’t let boys distract these eyes from the prize.
I turned 24 recently. It was a wonderful 7 days of celebration filled with food, alcohol, and gallivanting. I cracked my phone—battle scars of an eventful evening of crazy dancing. Everyone in my life has been truly a blessing, and I couldn’t ask for more.

But here I am, already asking before I’ve finished my business here. My next step? A bachelors. I’m ready for university after I’ve found a position using my Pharmacy Technician skills. I’d like to go into the field of medicine. I want to look back and be able to say I’ve completed the task…….


I don’t want to forget this moment.
AMBITIOUS MONSTER, RAE.