To My Future Lover

...And I DO love you...

<3, RAE.

I Will Walk Fine, Thank You...

2010 is two days away from its end and I'm beyond ready for it. Spending the last few moments with the people I care for most. Unfortunately, most of those people will be in my heart and mind when the minute strikes 12.

My MOM and I havent been on the same page until recently. I love her, will always love her. I LOVE that I have HER as MY MOMMY. <3 Many thanks to a woman who truly supports.
My DAD has become more estranged in my life, especially with his not-so-new-because-it's-been-2-or-more-years-now marriage. Regardless, we share plenty of laughs and I'm glad he loves me at the end of the day. And that he's ready to be my first phone call should I ever be jailed.
My MEGA AWESOME BROTHER is far away, and I slowly began to realize how much I miss him since he left. I never missed him like this before. He's been on so many deployments, and yet this one has got to be the hardest one. I wish I could help him. Make things easier. He deserves it. He's been beyond great to me and many others, and his character is one not to be EVER ignored. Literally awesome. I hate that he's missed every almost every awesome thing this year with my mom and & I. :P

My grandma Conching sits in a hospital in San Fransisco. Her strength and will power are encouragement that there is no such thing as impossible. We're blood and I'm proud that I have her traits... may they flow through me gracefully and rise me up when I decline. She will be better soon.....

The new year brings only great things; it has to. 2010 has been good, but I need 2011 to be better. But before I make plans for the future, I need to stop and really absorb the great people in my life. And for those people in my life, I will walk fine...even through the fire

I am thankful...
<3, RAE.

"I Am The Greatest"

Birthday in TRES DIAS!!!

So if you haven't heard, then you suck.

I'll be spending my birthday at X-location, Hollywood, CA. And from taking a virtual tour via the club's website, I started to notice some similarities. Maybe I'm crazy, but I think the Usher video for "Love in this Club" was filmed at this particular club.

Hahaha... gay, random, but to me, relevant! Will I find love in this club? Or Usher and his f*ckin flat nose? I have no idea. But I'm sooooo down to get piss drunk for the first time out of my soon to be 23 years of breathing.

On that note, maybe I should add that on my birthday I want:

-1 MAN
...to take care of me for the night, and be totally, entirely chivalrous and sweet to me.

ugggggh* but I already know that won't happen. :(
come back knight in dessert camo armor! haha.
wow, that probably made sense to only 3 people.

Anyway, enjoy Usher's video, Keri's ridiculous curves, and the song of Rae's day:



<3, RAE!

Birthday in FOUR!!!

Decided to post a list of all my wants and desires for my special day... not that any of them are going to come true. haha but just in case there's some caring individual that reads my blogs, this one's for you:

-Nuvo (in the PINK bottle!)
-Flowers (specifically not roses b/c they're so damned easy to come by)
-A butt load of crappy, homemade birthday cards that are short, but surprisingly sweet!
-gift cards to any of the following:

• H&M
• Forever 21
• American Apparel
• Urban Outfitters
• Gamestop
• Victoria's Secret

THANKS IN ADVANCE, GIFT GIVERS.
RAE!