Its not going to be easy

We've come to a point where colors can shine their brightest. Unfortunately the darkness bleeds deeper and I feel reluctant to want to pursue any kind of future. But here I am. There you are...

You beg me to be the same but what has been done is done. We need to learn from our mistakes do as to not let history repeat itself. Who in their right mind asks for another heart ache anyway?

The world is a crazy place. Personalities are very hard to measure with so much recession talk floating around. Desperation is on a whole other level. What IS easy is making more destruction and chaos. Everyone's doing it... We live in a society where it's important to think of yourself first, to fuck off the rest and make the best for thy self... That responsibility is limited bc everyone is hungry to move out of this economic crisis. Does that mentality have to transcend into love? No. But it still does... Culture. American society. People are fucking messed up!

It's easy. But it's not right...

This whole you and me... I can't promise you constant affection, sweet nothings, and ease. I can give you me and I am here. I am here to make things right, to guide us into a positive light, that our colors will shine all shades because we can adapt and overcome anything with vibrancy and life.

Its not going to be easy
But I am here

You have my heart...
RAE!

So here I am

Feeling and living it. It really is too good to be true.

Alexander Louis Sealock. Gosh, I could say his name over and over and over... And my heart grows rich in fondness, my soul bubbles, melts, and cools itself in this weird homeostatic system, and my body aches for him more like some crazy drug... I try to deny the fact that I'm crazy head over heels for this dude, but this feeling is something completely real.

Theres no turning back. So stop fighting it, you're heart is already all in....

So here I am. Take it or leave it.

I just hope you never break it. This feeling... It's beyond my mind, body & soul. Please be careful with me...

Feeling everything lovely,
RAE!

My Heart Beats Like a Symphony

“The one who would be in constant happiness must frequently change.” ~ Confucious

Flow. We cling to things in the past and cling to things in the present. Do you want to enjoy a symphony?

Don’t hold on to a couple of notes...
Don’t hold on to a few bars of the music...

Let them f l o w .

The whole enjoyment of a symphony lies in your readiness to allow such complexities to pass...

With the passing of Julie (RIP 10.29.2011), I've come to the realization that not everything has a plan and that even with a plan will you always be able to follow suit. Success does not always mean that you started a project and were able to finish accordingly--although that is ideal. But sometimes the best successes and joys of life are being able to adapt and over come... Things happen in life all the time. Some good. Some bad. I'm not always ready, but I'm learning to float.

My favorite candy bar... Hershey's Symphony Bar in Milk Chocolate Toffee Almond has become my latest craving--and no, I'm not pregnant! But it's so simple, and straightforward, and so complex and it hits every single one of my happy spots.

My heart beats like a symphony
I'm ready and open for love to flow...

Floating,
RAE

A little bit of negative

Fuck. I'm pissed.

I had a test today and i overslept. I cant believe i did this to myself. But in general, life is rough and stressful.
Let's be honest... I'm overwhelmed with the idleness and it feels like my attempts for change go unnoticed.

I don't know what to do. I definitely feel like a zombie right now. Just kind of doing whatever.

Shaking My Head,
RAE

Capping Brookes Bday

Through it all--I was there. I love my friend, Brooke and I only hope she has many great experiences for her 20th year. These are the photos that kicked off her year fresh from being a teen...