The Break Up - Day 1

I have gone over and over what had happened.
I’m still in shock that it has come to this.
How do we reverse the chemistry?
Is this how it’s supposed to be?

I cried, got angry, frustrated, everything… I felt every emotion that whole drive back. It was the worse drive ever. I usually feel good after a drive, not this one. It gave me more time to think about what was going on, more time to dwell and feel hurt. I just want the pain to go away… but unfortunately, it had to come one way or another.
Should I endure what is already hurting?
Or try and break the cycle, by ending it all?
Will any of this pain go away?
I had a totally different game plan for this weekend. Nothing like this… it must’ve happened for a reason. I will admit that I’m curious what would’ve been if I spoke up. If I really said what was on my mind. I had a lot of fear—I hope you understand—I felt completely at fault and stifled. It’s difficult to assume, but I almost felt like I had to.

I just hope that one day, you realize what I meant.
That you can honestly say that you’re ready, and hopefully you think about me




the newest single lady,
RAE