i dream of sleep

In a day ... awake at 0730
but today woke up late.
slept at 0230... sometimes 0300

so when i lay down... this is 2200-2230
I get trapped in my thoughts
the darkness is so convincing.
there are no dreams...
I'm in a well of shame
. un satisfaction .

its a different kind of nightmare. its all real.


I shouldn't be this weak. it shouldn't be an option.
i've got plenty to be proud of. achieved all on my own.
but im frustrated and tired and overwhelmed.............

i got my insurance today.
i cant wait to see the doctor...

a different kind of excitement.
im going to kill this insomnia.

AWAKE.
RAE